Mac Miller’s Coup De Grace
The melody and the lyrics always seem to outlive those who create it.
The could of, would of, should of. The inability to maximize their full potential that cripples those who are still around.
Or maybe it’s the lingering regret and failure to do anything when it was hidden in the lyrics all along.
It’s Kurt Cobain and Amy Winehouse. Whitney Houston, Prince and almost Demi Lovato. It’s Easy Mac, Larry Fisherman, Larry Dollaz, Larry Lovestein and Malcolm McCormick.
It’s Mac Miller.
On the eighth track record of Miller’s, 26, latest, and final album Swimming, the smooth jazzy “Small Worlds,” is what rings in the aftermath of the innovators death.
“Tell myself to hold on/I can feel my fingers slipping/In a motherf***ing instant I’ll be gone,” Miller rapped over a smooth jazzy beat.
And he was.
On Friday, Sept. 7, Miller was declared dead in his Los Angeles home at 26 years old due to an apparent drug overdose. Little to no details have been released to the public after.
Nothing but the consent to mourn for musics tragic loss.
Blue Side Park, Mac Miller’s first album released in 2011, may have been the first complete album I illegally downloaded from Limewire, again from Frostwire and later on from PiratesBay, before all Internet providers threatened hefty fines and termination of my parents policy for violating copyright policies.
Reflecting upon the origins of my music addiction, I credit Miller. At just 12-13-years old, I remember plugging my SkullCandy headphones into my yellow Ipod Nano to listen to Donald Trump, Best Day Ever, Party on Fifth Ave., Smile Back and Loud amongst many other early Miller songs. All illegally downloaded of course.
Early Mac sparked a rap culture in the youth that now tops all other genres today. In other words, the fans Miller cultivated were the same fans that allowed the lofty Rap empire to be built.
The best thing about Mac Miller, that fans everywhere can attest to, is that he’s been around music for so long that it feel as if I grew up with him. When I needed Mac to rap, he rapped, when I needed him to sing, he sang.
Miller was criticised for straying away from rap later on in his career and singing more in regards to mental health issues, his addiction, anxiety and depression. However, there is a hint of Larry Dollaz (one of Miller’s three music “alter-ego’s”) rap influence here and there.
The drastic change could have cost him a career that put him Platinum before 20, however, it connected fans across the world on a very human level.
His music journey reminded me a lot of life. It was very raw, very real, yet you still heard his voice blaring through speakers and subwoofers walking down the street on a Saturday night. There were lows and high, slow beats and provocative beats, It went with the tide.
Miller’s music began to rally his fans through their own highs and lows. A song for every mood and a song to get you through.
Swimming, released on Aug. 3, was the epitome of just that. Streaked with Millers own transparency of his anxiety and candid curiosity of what it’s like to “Live above the lights,” a reference possibly to a heaven above, was a 13-track album that took its listeners on a journey.
Less than 24 hours before Millers death, Vulture released an article, The Perfectionist, which profiled Miller who returned to the spotlight with Swimming that hit the Billboard Top 100 after a break from fame. The rappers hiatus began after he crashed his Mercedes G-Wagon in a hit-and-run back in Spring of 2018. Tabloids credited the reckless abandonment to the recent break up with Pop-Star Ariana Grande.
Within the article he is quoted saying, “I really wouldn’t want just happiness, and I don’t want just sadness either. I don’t want to be depressed. I want to be able to have good days and bad days.”
For Miller, there must have been more bad days than good.
In the wake of artists death, their words and music begin to sound different then they did antemortem.
All five of Mac Miller’s albums have entered the Billboard 200 chart
Sitting at No. 33,“Self Care.”
“Yeah, I been reading them signs
I been losin’ my, I been losin’ my, I been losin’ my mind, yeah
Get the f**k out the way, must be this high to play
It must be nice up above the lights
And what a lovely life that I made, yeah
I know that feelin’ like it’s in my family tree, yeah
Somebody save me from myself, yeah”
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